“Ugly love becomes you. Consumes you. Makes you hate it all. Makes you realize that all the beautiful parts aren’t even worth it. Without the beautiful, you’ll never risk feeling the ugly. So you give it all up. You give it all up. You never want love again, no matter what kind it is, because no type of love will ever be worth living through the ugly love again.”
I’ve said it a hundred times, and I’ll say it a million more, COLLEEN HOOVER IS THE READING SLUMP TERMINATOR. Her bottomless well of beautiful words impact every page and conquer the evil that are reading slumps. I finished this book in two sittings, because it was THAT HARD TO PUT DOWN. I swear I would’ve finished the book on the first sitting, but it was already 5 am, and I had school, so I had to go to sleep, but IF IT WEREN’T FOR MY DAMNED HUMAN NEEDS, I would’ve devoured the entire book that first sitting.
This book was TERRIFIC. Surprise, surprise. It never ceases to surprise me just how fast you can get sucked into Colleen’s writing, her stories & her characters. This book was heartbreakingly beautiful, thought-out, raw and real.
Ok, I guess I should share with you a guys a bit of what the story is about. So this PHENOMENAL book is basically about a girl named Tate who moves in with her brother in San Francisco, to finish getting her Masters degree in nursing & working as a nurse. The day she moved in, she met her brother’s neighbor, Miles Archer, aka tormented-tragic-past-swoonworthy-hunk. They don’t really consider themselves as friends, but they acknowledge their mutual attraction, so they decide to start a physical relationship, but without any of the emotional stuff. Kind of like friends with benefits. But, as always, this plan doesn’t really go too well, after a while.
The story is told in two POVs, present day is in Tate’s perspective and “six years earlier” is in Miles perspective. At first, I found Miles’ chapters very strange, slightly creepy, and melodramatic, but it got a LOT better after a couple chapters, until I actually started enjoying reading his perspective from six years ago, and started to understand its importance to the present day storyline.
That’s really all I can say without spoiling, so if you haven’t read it, I suggest you go pick this book up RIGHT NOW, you’ll fly right through it, I CAN’T RECOMMEND IT ENOUGH.
- Miles: When I first started reading Ugly Love, I was very apprehensive towards Miles, because I found him slightly weird and dramatic (especially from his POV chapters). His scenes where all he did was think about how in love he was with Rachel and the insta-love he felt towards her were kind of irritating, but as I said, it got a LOT better after a couple of chapters. I LOVED how when he realized he had fallen for Rachel, the text changed towards the center, as if it were more poetic, I loved that touch. And when he realized that his relationship with her had ended, it went back to normal text, and then in present-day-time, he accepted he loved Tate, it also changed to center-text. It was so cute, I just adored that extra touch, it made Miles seem so romantic and passionate, something that his rigid exterior and armor really hide.
- Tate: I LOVED HER SO MUCH, her patience really deserves a round of applause. I know some people say that the heartbreak she went through in this book was self-inflicted, because Miles was straight with her from the get-go, about his intentions. I get that. But COME ON. You need to try to get in her position, she’s falling for this man, and obviously any sliver of hope she finds, she will hold on to! Her self-awareness of the situation made me even more sympathetic towards her, because you could just tell she physically/emotionally could not let go of this man, her infatuation/love ran so deep that she was willing to take whatever he was willing to give, even if it was never enough. Her perseverance and hope really stood out to me, and being able to watch her literally bring him back to life with her love was the most precious, wrapped-up-gift Colleen Hoover could give us.
“Whoever coined the phrase, I love you to death obviously never experienced the kind of love Tate and I share. If that were the case, the phrase would be I love you to life. Because that’s exactly what Tate did. She loved me back to life.”
Some parts that I found uncomfortable and heartbreaking were:
- when Miles “ruined” her, by using her for sex, and once he was done, just left her in his kitchen, and walked away. You could see her feeling dehumanized and objectified, by the man she was falling in love with, and do nothing because of their arrangement.
- when we find out that Rachel is Miles’ soon-to-be-sister-in-law.
- when we find out that Rachel is pregnant, and their parents just got married.
- when we see Rachel & Miles get into that car accident, and the aftermath. This day changed Miles & Rachel’s, not just relationship, but their life forever, because they become different people. Their loss is so grave, deep and heartbreaking, it was one of the saddest things I’ve ever read.
- when Miles accidentally calls out Rachel’s name, and becomes Tate’s breaking point.
Now, THE ENDING WAS FANTASTIC. Colleen did NOT disappoint, because this ending was just perfect. It was so “full-circle”-esque, because we saw him reunite with Rachel and finally forgive himself for his past, we saw him reach out to Tate and finally accept his feelings towards her, we saw them enjoying the sunset together on the plane, and CAP WAS THERE BEING HIS ADORABLE SELF, then we saw Miles with the boxes, and the adorableness, just GAHD. Beautiful. The part that absolutely shattered me, and made me fall in love 10000000 times more, was when he saw his daughter being born, and being so afraid he wouldn’t feel the same emotions he felt when Clayton was born, but then when he saw Sam, and he cried…ugh the feels.
In conclusion, yeah, this book was phenomenal, and I loved every part of it, I can’t recommend it enough. I NEED MORE COLLEEN HOOVER BOOKS IN MY LIFE; the next one I’ll read will probably be Slammed. BRING IT ON.
PS. NICK BATEMAN. HE WILL BE EVERYTHING.
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